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| in front Mak Cik House , Bentong. :) before we left to KL. |
This morning I was be sock when I
heard my grandpa got the coat so heavy, really I afraid it…I thought he need
somebody to help him, so then I went to his room and helped him as best as I
can, I advised him to take rest on the bed and using the blanket, but he refuse
it because he had already used the socked and long pants, then I offered an other
help, but he refused it so then I just go in sleep in his bed room accompany
him, I hope I’m the first person can heard if he need something to help, so
totally I decide to sleep in my grandpa bedroom , which is that already early
morning 1.20 am, hmmm
…. I went sleppppppppp,,,zzzzzzzzzzzzz…my mind go head around the world, and dreams
flying around me…
I was wondering what happen with me
last night, I just week up an early 5.30 am, my grandpa was already week up and
want to clean up his room, he told me to pray and he himself already pray, I
thought I want pray together with him, something was made so socked and
happy…that when my grandpa was made me up, I was dreaming someone, somebody so
far from me , it’s been long time ago I meet him, almost more than one years
past….
I don’t know why he suddenly comes across to
my dream, the dream was so nice…I can imagine that how happy I am when I can
saw his smiled to me even only dream….he is really like a real, even I have not
meet him again a couple of years, only twice I have meet him,,, but he come to
my dreams..
In that dreams It was like a real, I
don’t know how it could be happen,” I just helping him in the heavy of rain, he
help me by giving me an advise for pay something..( hmmm, I don’t know what I
had to pay) he really give brilliant
idea, then I help him to handle his umbrella, it was happen directly that I
just try to help him anyway, but something chemistry comes when I was near with
him, I felt something , beat in my heart, I admit it..I was a little nervous
when I so close with him, almost touch his body, his face so near with my nose,
but I was afraid of..cause I’m woman and he is a man, and both of us , such
have an chemistry so then I pretend to
not felt anything ,but real in my deep heart I was need him too, my heart can’t
stop to breathing, and I felt so happy at that time, when we so close I change
my face to other side because I was afraid something will be happen between us,
he was looked my attitude, but I pretend to
have nothing , but Its wasn’t work because he can felt big breathing in
my heart, and I can felt to he was so felt different with me, I don’t know what
happen to him , does he as nervous as I am? Does he have the feeling as I am?
Does he happy as I am????
I don’t know that…I was happy at that time the
situation really give the us felt so comfort, I’m not feel any distance with
him…. Then he wants to do something to me, and he saw there her sister around
us at that time so he make sure everything in control…….suddenly I hear
someone a guys called my
name…Juwita..Juwita…..Juwita…week up honey….GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGgg….
Directly I realize that I was in the
dreams…o God, time had already 5.30 am in Indonesia….I was so happy and I
really want to continue again that dream...I try to sleep again, I moved to my room,
but suddenly I realize I have to Subuh prayer, than I went to down, take a
wudhu,,, after sholat , in my pray I was said ,,
Thank you very God much for this
dreams, It made me very happy today, so my mind fly to the memories in one
years ago when still in UUM……this is the same month when he back to his
country, I was waiting that time when I was in his county, waiting for his coming,
I was happy to know he will back to His country .an early 2010, he had finished
his study and March 2011 he back to his hometown… Welcome Back Bro... “he is
back” that’s note, what I write in my schedule when I still in my campus,
really I want to pick him up accompany his mother to airport…but I can’t cause
at that time I have to responsible with my study…. I can’t describe how much
happy I am since he back to Malaysia…
I remember date and time 7 march 2010,
he arrived at KLIA Kuala Lumpur International Airport… even in the same county
but I haven’t met him again after first moment we together at Bentong ,
Pahang…but the memories still clear in my mind”
I wondering what chemistry happen to
me, at first time
Thanks a lot got, I have felt better
since I got that dreams,,, my mind went to the memories at first time we meet…”
yeah, Kachi is the most memories place…” it’s was great and full of chemistry ,
I know he felt same to me, he have chemistry to me too..
In my mind I didn’t realize that I
was miss his mother so much,,, I miss his Mother Salmah bin Thahir….I called
her makcik Sal, suddenly Ayah Zawawi and Ayah Lang come in side to my pray,,, I
wish Zawawi’s Family was great and fine,, really I miss them so much,, I just hope
they was in good condition and God blessing them…Inshallah in Good time I can
meet with them again in better condition, I want to give the best present to made them proud to me…I want
to say a thousand of thank for them for all Zawawi’s Family member give the
help and inspiring me to be better person….
Alhamdulillah, all praise to ALLAH,
I never thinks …if I live without ALLAH..Thanks ALLAH, Thanks you for chance
made me meet with Zawawi’s family, Thanks I got a the complete family like this, Thanks for my
Parents, my thanks for my Grandparents, Thanks
a got care friends and teacher… I want thank YOU for what ever you give
to me…Thanks Allah
Alhamdulillah,
all praise to Allah, all praise to Allah …..
I
don’t know what happed to me; I don’t what happen to them too...
Just know that want to meet him and keep in
touch with them,
With
love and Miss
-JQRPV-
When
the sunshine comes, the wind is blind, and the birds are singing …
That’s
my felling fell better and great time wait for me to pick up them…..
Jalan
KH.Azahari yang memulai kegiatannya kembali setelah gelap berlalu…
The
Life starts again….
